Monday, February 7, 2011

Spell Eight Ender

The crime was done. The curlers were amazed and cheering.
“Hey!” boasted one of the victors. “Ya’ know the only thing that’s harder to get than a twenty-nine cribbage hand? An eight-ender! Yes!” She roared and raised her victory fist.
It was documented. It was sketched for immediate re-photograph.
Over coffee, everyone sat and discussed how the end had unfolded.
A few of the curlers who’d given it up lamented. “How could we let this happen?” They lined their woe with could-haves and should-haves.
The winners talked of the many times they’d tried and almost achieved the illusive eight-ender. The moment would not be forgotten.

At the same instant, a bleak wind swept the Irish landscape. Inland for miles the North Sea’s pelting force could be seen in the whet of the trees and the grey of the air. The transit corridor had now become multi-fold, for trains or cars or horses or bicycles or foot traffic. Haste was the only assurance inside it, but the pastoral view from the hectic corridor was the same as it had always been.
Despite the impossible deadline, Liz felt in control and in charge. She knew she had to depart and go to the site of the grave. She would go even if she was meant to be late and all was lost. She had to hear the voice and sense the truth. It was the only choice.
Dean’s hair flew in the wind. He panted with the urgent message from Wanda as he approached Liz in the chaotic corridor interface. “I will move forward with the crowd and let them believe that we are lost,” he said. “I will take the message to the front and then we can make our move if he disembarks.”
They each visualized the private cruiser moored off the coast in the waters north of Antrim and the private darkly people there in wait. Then with strength, they shook it off, gave one another an encouraging smile and headed to their separate loading docks. “Hey!” Liz called at him through the crowd. “Don’t look so worried. Repeat it! Always message over might. Go with the people my man. They will turn with us when the time is there.”
Can granite actually cast a stoppage of time? Who would have known that those rocks of stone carried more than weight? Certainly, an aged curler could describe that time shift, the purity of the 8-ender, and the silence of the cold draw. These days though, too few remembered that it was always more than just a game.
Liz left the noisy shuttle train and an amiable chap pointed across the field to the local cemetery. Access was widely open to view by day and as luck would have it, the sun was breaking through to make the approach most obvious, so she could not feel small. The grass was golf course perfect and the walkways were English garden quaint. There was not a soul between the train dock and the refuge of the cemetery oasis three hundred meters overland. She was resigned. She would amble slowly and enjoy the unexpected bursts of sunshine. If her quest had been intercepted, surely this would be where they would meet.

“Maybe there is no glory in an eight-ender,” said Kevin with some strange disappointment. “They must feel so humiliated about giving it up.”
His team was only briefly aghast by his pensive outburst. Their glee could not be deflated. While they buzzed over the moment, he slowly walked toward the door leading to the empty rink of sheets. As it closed behind him and he re-entered the silence of the curling ice, he could hear the clank of glasses and the buzz of aprés curling through the viewing glass. All else was silence. He strolled to sheet five and walked over to the yellow stones, kicking them aside till he stood above number eight. It had been his last rock, the one that had clinched the moment.
He glanced up toward the viewing area to see whether he was being watched. Two kids on chairs were pointing at him from over sheet two. Their faces and hands were pressed against the glass, leaving a nonsense chore for the caretaker after the festivities were done. Inside, at the far end of sheet one, the ice-maker was lifting the score and placing the numbers back in the bin for tomorrow’s draw. Over by the payphone, through the glass, Ronnie, perpetual Ronnie, could be seen leaning in his chair, half snoozing in the din, looking toward the partiers. Beyond him, a few early birds had their coats on and were making for the door, but the party was definitely on, and there was not much attention to the ice, especially with the excitement of the eight-ender.
Kevin juggled the number eight stone out of the pack and kicked it toward the hack. He knelt to clean the rock, as he had, thousands before.
“Damn!” he thought. “My broom!”
In his haste to appear nonchalant he had walked out onto the ice without his broom. He’d stashed it under the table where the party was on. He had never done this before and became panicky. How could he re-throw his rock? How could he finish the spell? He knew he’d best not attract any extra attention. Would the delivery succeed? Would it scatter the point? He’d have to proceed and take the risk.

Liz realized how she must have looked as she stepped off the train dock. She had been through so much and the sense of urgency was exhausting her.
“Stupid stupid shoes,” she remarked to herself as she looked down at her feet that housed tacky white sling-backs, a throw back from the sixties; retro, they were called now. She’d spent yesterday evening at kareoke in Newcastle and had sipped several rums too many. But the rum was no burden. She lit a smoke as she started toward the spruce circle that was her destination.
“Anything, anything, not to be noticed,” she said to herself. The walk felt like eternity. The skin on the inside of her lips and cheeks felt prominent as time slowed down. She heard her spine as she turned her head from left to right.
“Yes,” she thought. “Time, time, play with me,” she prayed.

Wanda sat back and smelled the wind as the masses of train travellers moved toward the north coast. “I feel quite safe,” she softly whispered to the wind. “Momentum is neither force nor might,” she reminded herself.

Dean’s despair did not show as he moved forward with the crowd of people gleefully hoping for a glimpse of the mysterious craft. The crowd was a hopeful crowd, he thought. Could they be swayed? Would they care? Would it matter? He knew he was a worrier and so usually he lacked the special sensitivity. He knew then, that he simply must trust and listen crisply for cues. He listened for Wanda in the wind and wondered how she knew the people would be in motion. She always knew.

“What part does the broom play in the spell anyway?” Kevin consoled himself and weighed the value of privacy against the purpose he’d been granted. He had a critical role.
He could hear the voices in his head, “Deliver that stone. Deliver that stone, son. Just deliver that stone. A clean draw.”
He decided to stay put and take advantage of the privacy with only the oblivious ice maker at hand. He would deliver it without his broom. He crouched and tilted the rock. He wore no gloves and gently placed his hand on the smooth cold surface, looking at the new porcelain insert on its underbelly.
“Does it feel warmer? Does it feel different? What is my role?” Poor Kevin was driven to carry the task that had been handed to him from his mother and grandfather and curling uncles and aunts as long as any of them could remember good living room craic. He did know what he had to do. Could he carry it out for them all?

Liz could see the dew on the grass as she approached the glen. The stones were becoming apparent. She casually threw her cigarette into the dewy lawn and entered the shade of the shrubbery and majestic spruce circle. She was surprised that so many of the stones were being overgrown, some flat foot stones were barely visible. The cemetery was marked by soft white limestone for the most part. She relaxed with the bird songs, knowing from the stories that they sweetened when the time was richer. The creatures did not mind at all. She glanced back at the transport corridor and saw the motion but no apparent interest in her. How would she know? How would she know? She lit another smoke and sat on the arbour beside the gate, feeling relaxed and hoped that was a good sign.

Ronnie tilted his chair and giggled to himself. He couldn’t believe that destiny had placed this in his hands. This was his seventh eight-ender. No, he’d never been on the ice but he’d always hung around to be there, just in case. Never before had it mattered. But funny, he had never doubted. And now, here, in this prairie town, he was called to intervene. The children were fighting and giggling and jumping from chair to chair, banging the glass as they dodged one another.

Boom! Screech! Liz looked through the trees to the corridor. “Damn traffic,” she thought. The flashing lights at the station vibrated blue indicating a halt to all except bicycle and foot traffic. “Thank god we’re not in an air corridor,” she mumbled.
“Yah,” she heard a reply.
“Hey, Ronnie, my man! I wondered.” She took a slow drag on her smoke.

Kevin’s heart was pounding. Not a good sign. His assurance was wavering. He felt isolated and alone, like the big forget.

Wanda’s job was almost done. “We can survive it quite easily if the voice is muffled,” she spoke silently.
“Gordon,” she mused, “he cannot hear you. Ronnie is awake and we have smiles to carry us. There is no glory in annihilation. There never was. There never will be.”

Liz crunched her smoke under the heel of her sling back, stood and walked onto the wet grass to find baby Ricky and give him a little kiss. She had been given her instructions.

Kevin nervously glanced over his right shoulder and then his left as he settled into the hack to deliver. The kids were jumping around. The old guy by the phone was still rocking. The icemaker, was sweeping off the bottom of his lambskin down at the far end. “ Just do it,” he whispered to himself under his breath.

Dean thought he sensed, the crowd around him in the coastal access corridor had become, in some way, less focussed. The seaside was in view and the boat could be seen moored about 500 meters out. The sun was breaking through after days of rain, and the wind was abating. His heart was still pounding but an inexplicable happiness rather than fear was fuelling its fury.

Ronnie stood up and walked toward the glass behind sheet five. The partiers remained oblivious. The kids thought he was walking over to give them hell so they jumped down, crawled under the bleachers and started giggling.

Liz looked for granite. “Right,” she thought. “The angel, the dove, and the granite. Of course! They would test time. Ricky, where are you?” her voice lingered softly as if she was playing a wee game of hide-and-seek. She spotted a red piece of polished stone, half buried with the grass and soil of time in the cemetery. She pushed back the grass with her shoe and saw part of the inscription. The year was seventeen something. “Hmmm,” she thought. “It has been a while since the last one.”

Kevin did feel awkward without his broom, but he had come this far.

The crowd began to disembark from the coastal corridor and to Dean’s surprise, they moved casually in small groups, quietly enjoying the wintery seaside nature, paying little or no attention to the vessel that had seemed to be the focus of the journey.

Ronnie knelt and called the kids out from under the bleachers while reaching into his pocket to see if he had a loonie. “What’s your name son? Whose kid are you?” he barked gruffly.
“She’s a girl!” pouted the younger of the two. “I’m Garret and she’s my sister, Ricki.”
“We’re Gordons,” said Ricki.
“Ah fine then,” said Ronnie. “Come ‘ere. I got a loonie for each of you so you can go an’ have a piece of pie from the canteen.” He kissed each coin. As he placed them in the children’s hands he gently patted the tops of their heads and turned to see Kevin in his awkward back swing.

Liz pushed the dirt away and saw baby Ricky being lifted by an angel. She gave him a little kiss. Stood and lit a smoke.

Wanda leaned back and closed here eyes with a relaxed sigh.

Kevin counterbalanced the best he could without his broom, slid the draw forward and rotated awkwardly clockwise as the stone left his hand with acceptable draw weight. Not pretty, but delivered. He thought.
The yellow handle was released with an in-turn and rotated gently toward the rings at the far end.
The children ran to the canteen to collect their pie.
Ronnie returned to his seat, content that he had done his duty.

The flags on the boat anchored off the north shore of county Antrim stood outward in the wind. Fully clear to Dean who held his breath as he watched them rise to their wind position. Would the people see the banner Gordon? Would they be eager to heed? The February sun off the northern Irish coast was cold yet the people had been drawn to see one disembark and perhaps carry on.

Liz ambled back toward the train deck, prepared to accept either score.

The rock slid upon its own accord into the house. Twelve foot. Kevin stood and watched, feeling somehow small for the glory of the attempt to deliver for an unknown master.

Three banners: blue and red and yellow. Dean watched. The blue and red caught gusts and gathered themselves into nothing, tangled in the lanyards of their poles. The Yellow remained taught with the wind.

Eight foot. Four foot. Still moving.

Wanda sat upright, then stood wide-eyed and stern. She lifted her arms, palms open to the wind.

Ronnie glanced over his left shoulder and met Kevin’s indifferent eyes. He knew he knew.
Still moving. Biting the button. Beyond the button. Four foot eight foot. Still moving.

The crowds surrounding Dean on the coastal transport corridor were laughing and spirited and quite disinterested in the yellow banner, now moving naturally with the wind, its erection passing.

Slowing. Back twelve. It stopped with a bite of the back line.
Kevin shrugged and started walking down the ice to kick back the rock. The ice maker beat him to it with the six foot wide lambskin sweeper. He looked up sternly at Kevin as they approached one another at centre ice.
“I got it Jack,” said Kevin lightly.
“You got nothin’ Kevin,” said Jack, head down has he swept along the sheet four side board toward home.
“Maybe not.”

As the sun set and the crowds dispersed, Dean watched to be sure. The ship called anchor and set northward after the horizon.

Monday, May 31, 2010

Going Home - A Possible SciFi Story

Going Home
by Nancy Ellen McLennan

I had an awake dream two nights ago. I could not return to sleep after awakening at 3 a.m. Ultimately, I rose at 5:45 and at the time I thought I'd been faced with a revelation. A secret revelation. A shameful one. Well, one that would take courage to declare.

I arose as a new woman, resolved and calm in my new understanding of our world, but unsure how to handle the change, unsure what responsibility to take.

I laid there annoyed by my neighbours who in their understanding of the world had decided that the glaring porch light on the back of their house, the one that had lit my kitchen for the past five years, since I arrived in this town, was not sufficient to keep the bad guys away.

I wondered if the crux had been the sudden and unexpected death of our mutual neighbour, Harvey. Word of his death came days after his passing in a casual remark from a fellow neighbour.

“By the way, did you hear that Harvey died?”
“What!”
“Harvey. You know. The native guy in the little house?”
“What! You're kidding? What happened?”
“I dunno. He wasn't feeling well and he went to the doctor and they sent him home. Then a couple of days later he died. They took him away. They were checking-out the house.”
“Oh shit. He was a pretty good guy.”

Harvey Guiboche spoke with an accent: OjiCree. He lived long enough to see his native language officially recognized by the Manitoba government. Folks thought he was drunk, even when he wasn't. He kept his hair long and was happy and chatty all the time.

We were neighbours and both had small dogs. Baby, his little dachshund type mutt would bark territorially at Gia, my small poodle, when we passed their house, along the lane, after our long walks. Harvey would laugh and talk about how vicious Baby was and to be careful. The dogs liked each other and Harvey and I had a good respect too.

Since his death, his son moved into the house with his wife and son. Baby stayed and they brought another dog, a tied-up small rottie. The diamond willow carvings in the yard are to “pass the time”, says Harvey's son. And the grandson is cheerful and chatty, like his Grandpa.

I cannot be sure, but I think the arrival of new neighbours, being more active and a younger family, is what marked the need to move the motion light off the porch and onto the garage.

Nobody would call it racism and maybe it wasn't. Who knows what kinds of fear ring in the hearts of an elderly couple in a small central Manitoba town? Who knows what conversations pass between husband and wife for sixty years? Did it start in the home, after watching the horrors of TV news, or while discussing the reality behind a story of local mayhem in the weekly newspaper? Did it start among the men at the 10 a.m. coffee clatch down the street?

“The cops were at the house across form Jack's again last night.”
“Yah, I heard it's a crack house.”
“Those goddam natives.” or
“They got that guy they were looking for. They found him over at the house down from Brad and Shelley’s. Did you see the cop cars?” or
“Jeezus. I wish the cops would come down on those assholes beside the school. Who needs that shit?”

None of it had anything to do with Harvey. Not really. But racism is a nasty disease. It generalizes and sneezes into peoples' minds and comes out their mouths and it spreads into ears and out of other mouths across kitchen tables and from pillow to pillow. It lays dormant and silent and festers and manifests itself in action, if not force.

Just like greed, the second worst disease. Together they create an irrational fear and compulsion for an old couple to protect their property.


So they moved the single, motion light across the yard and attached it to their garage so it would flood the yard and their back porch. But as luck would have it, the westerly spot light shone straight into my upstairs bedroom window.
As a kid, living in the city, I used to listen to the city transit buses pass the front of our wartime house on Manitoba Avenue. But there was more. I would feel the gentle rumble of the house, a small, but unmistakable vibration of the Red River gumbo as the heavy vehicle passed. And of course, I could smell it every time, during the hot summer nights. Most of all I remember the lights. I could never figure out the math. I would hear the bus first and know it would pass us in a few seconds, so I would watch.

The street light on the corner cast a distinct series of shadows across the slanted ceilings of my bedroom. I tried to memorize them. I tried really hard as I anticipated the bus. And then it would begin. It was a transformation of probably fewer than five seconds. The shadows would move. The light would change. It was all very geometric. It wasn't smooth and gradual because the lines of the ceiling would cause the shadows to suddenly drop, or lift. Light would flash on one spot and move across, or up, or simply pop out of existence. It was a pattern. I knew it was, but I could never remember how it went. East to west, top to bottom, with the bus, but that's all I could truthfully discern. It was a fond memory.

Now, in a different bedroom with a slanted ceiling, I was laying awake at 3 a.m. looking at geometric patterns of light and shadow on my walls and ceilings. This time they did not move. It was on and off. On and off. On and off. And again I began to seek the math but instead of shape, I measured duration. The longest dark respite I received from the brilliant spot was ninety seconds, of the intervals I counted. I was struggling to find sleep so I did not count them all. Fifteen seconds. Thirty-one. Seventy-one. I woke a time or two with my hand over my eyes. I pondered moving my end table and learning to sleep on my left side instead of my right so the light would be on my back. I mourned not seeing the gradually dawning morning light every morning as indeed, I mistook it for another flash from the spot.

I contemplated what had been triggering the light. Cats no doubt, or maybe skunks. I must remember to keep my trash behind closed doors.

I didn't sleep as the light penetrated my sleeping quarters. I needed thicker eyelids. Maybe I could find that night mask from La Senza somewhere. It was frustrating and on this precipice between deep sleep and wakefulness, with my mind playing its usual rituals of figuring and pondering and yes, wakeful dreaming, that is when, thanks to my fearful neighbours, my gut began to churn as the revelation reached my consciousness.

For several weeks I had been grieving. On April 20, oil began bleeding from the earth's skin, into the Gulf of Mexico. Skin, protected by a layer of salty seawater had been probed and punctured and now it bled. Preserves, hidden within the crust of the earth for millennia, offering gravitational balance to the globe as it drifts through space, were being pulled through a hole, forced into the sea, and the flow was finding its way to the surface of the water and ultimately to sea shores, where alien to the touch of air, it would agglomerate and mingle and separate and smear itself. It was not malicious. It could feel the imbalance and the chaos of its new configurations, but unfortunately, it had no choice! Gravity was pulling it up. It knew that somewhere else on the globe, some land was sinking to fill the gap it had vacated. It really did not like the light and preferred the pressure and solid security of its cave-like origin, but an accident of existence, a species of existence, had a curiosity beyond logic and a persistence beyond rationality, an unnatural disease of greed that had driven it to find a way to set it, the oil, free from its silent balanced bastion beneath those tropical waters.

And I continued to grieve. I felt helpless though I told my friends to have hope.
That day, I had read a post on my facebook site that spoke to some hope and some grief. The next day, I spoke to a woman who concluded that we were powerless. The post was from Toronto. The woman was from Korea. And I am here, in Manitoba. The grief is global. There is a global connection. A global thought.

“We are all suffering from the disease of greed,” thought I.

It is like the racism. It spreads. It affects the innocent and it affects the perpetrators. It is insidious. It masks itself so folk think it is good and aspirational. It divides and separates to station for conquer.

But why? What is the ultimate goal? To puncture the earth's tender skin and cause its blood to pour and build an irreparably imbalance on the planet? To make life worse for sand and grass and song birds? To make the fishes run away?

There was no reason. It could only be explained as an infection. A disease. Or possibly an infestation.

And that was the revelation. Humanity is indeed an infestation.

A few weeks ago I read about Stephen Hawkings sending out a dire warning that “we” need to be cautious about alien onslaught. That it could be really horrible. Immediately, Paul Hillier retorted.

“Phshaw”. They have been here already. They are among us. “There is no doubt,” said he. He cited evidence that much of our technology, from the pyramids to the computer chips could not have been, were not to be credited to humanity.

I thought of the passage that Doris Lessing wrote about Martha, stumbling through the filthy populated streets of 1960's London, looking at the creatures with air holes and talking slits on their faces. With hair poking out hither and thither with eyes that wonder independently of the rest of the creature, of the stink and filth among them.

Then I realized. It made clear and honest sense. Humanity is indeed an infestation. Planted on this planet possibly to eradicate it from elsewhere where it was simply doing too much harm.

Unlike the bees or the ants, these creatures were quite large. The question was how long would it take for them to send their drones and their workers and build their hives and manufacture their nectar. How long would it take before the factions and the hives were formed and the renegades hid and the synapses became broken and lost in quests for power and supremacy?

Humanity had destroyed before and would do so again.

I thought of James Cameron's movie, Avatar, and the story stolen, or invented, or borrowed – or that we all knew, that there is really only one mind among us.

The grief is evidence of that. As implants, vain curious unusual beings, and continually regarding all stones and plants and clouds and creatures as “others” it became clear that, we are implants, striving to fit and belong.

The quest for power, the greed disease, the separation disease. These true diseases of humanity that have nothing to do with bodily functions have become paramount now. It took about six thousand years. The universal experiment is coming to a close. The pessimists’ thesis will fail to be rejected.


Finally, after two and a half hours enduring the punctuation of dark with fear, the light in my window turned midnight blue and then charcoal blue and the motion light stopped detecting the cat and I rose to greet another day.

No wonder they have never found the missing link. I wonder where home is. I wonder what it used to be like.

May 15, 2010